I have been anticipating this day/weekend for over 11 years.
I have NEVER, due to illness, missed an entire weekend at Living Hope. Have never had to "call in sick". Guess that perfect record turned into a perfect little storm.
This little mutated flu, severe cold thing going around? I got it Thursday. Pastor Rick told me to stay home Friday and rest. He cares about me (and knows how stupid I can be). I didn't, in fact was at church Friday from 9:00 AM staff meeting to around 8:00 PM to see the Worship night. The teams did so good.
Saturday morning, I woke up pretty sick. I mean, my pain tolerance is higher than most people, especially women, so it is hard to comprehend the reality of just how sick I felt. I had a fever of 100 (I know...), I had congestion in my chest that felt like a gallon of super glue. My nose felt and LOOKED like the commericial where the guys nose just is so red and swollen. I was so hot that my eyelids were even hot. I was afraid my eyes would burn? I was sick (still am). Do you feel for me yet??? For those of you who never get sick, or if you do it is once in 11 years.... I know at least you can empathize with me, and sympathize for me. Thanks, only in Heaven will you know how much it means......
Anyway, sorry for the descriptive-ness of my sick, flu assaulted life. I just am a bit upset, frustrated, bored, mad and I want to say there are no good movies on Saturday. Michelle had to be at all the services, so I even had to make my own chicken noodle soup. Can I just say I hate being sick. Not sure if the adjectives are allowing for a memorable post.
OK, that is enough complaining. I am like some of you. I have the spiritual gift of complaining. I think we can be so good at it.
Mike Miller was called Saturday around 9:30 AM, and stepped up. Because Mike is on staff at Living Hope, he is speaking a little more, but that he was willing with basically a few hours notice, I want to say thanks to Mike. I have heard great things about his message.
Being sick. There is really nothing good about it except for the fact it forces you to slow down or in my pathetic state to stop. I am wired in a way that slowing or stopping doesn't happen easily. I am way more wired to do, to run, to plan, to be active.
I guess we have to learn to see what the ONE thing God is doing in the moment of our sickness. What is He doing or trying to do? I think there is always only one right thing in the moment to do, or be, or think about. I think, in simply "being", we eventually are better because of it.
In Luke 10:38-42 there is such a powerful story about doing the right thing. Chapter 10 is packed full of action for God's Kingdom. I love it. Jesus sends out 72 other disciples in pairs to share the message. Then Jesus shares the great commandment, then shares the story of the good samaritan. Talk about a busy day?
After all the activity, Jesus and the disciples were on their way back to Jerusalem, and Jesus was invited to eat in a home. Take a moment and read the story.
"As Jesus and the disciples continued on their way to Jerusalem, they came to a certain village where a woman named Martha welcomed him into her home. 39 Her sister, Mary, sat at the Lord’s feet, listening to what he taught. 40 But Martha was distracted by the big dinner she was preparing. She came to Jesus and said, “Lord, doesn’t it seem unfair to you that my sister just sits here while I do all the work? Tell her to come and help me.”
41 But the Lord said to her, “My dear Martha, you are worried and upset over all these details!
42 There is only one thing worth being concerned about. Mary has discovered it, and it will not be taken away from her.”
A couple thoughts. First of all, Jesus isn't condemning activity or the absence of it. So many times we will hear messages where Martha gets beat up. The issue for Jesus wasn't what she was doing, but what she was worried about because of what someone else (mainly her sister) wasn't doing. I think everyone is wired to be more like Mary or more like Martha. I am not sure how I am wired? lol
What Martha was "doing" wasn't bad. She was stressed and worried about so many details. Isn't that so the way life can be? When we are stressed, or upset or worried, the problem is we miss the ONE kingdom opportunity God has for us in this moment. When the day was over, I imagine Mary helped her sister, but what she needed was to sit and listen to Jesus teach. It is sitting that we are better prepared for doing.
I hope we all can, as Jesus said "discover it" today. Time with friends, time in God's word, a phone call, a prayer a moment to sit with your kids, an unscheduled (needed) vacation with your wife, OR, in my case sitting on a couch with ONLY GOD.
In that one moment to discover the Kingdom thing God has for you is the real only thing that matters. It is in sitting, and being we are better prepared for doing.
My sickness discontent was met with God's incomparable presence. John and Jesus on a couch, hanging out. That is what my Saturday (and looks like my Sunday) will be. Time with ONLY GOD.
There is always only ONE thing that matters most. I pray we discover it, and you know what else I pray? I pray that we wouldn't take it away from each other. So often we think we know best for others. Maybe sometimes we do, but I wonder if we stopped and allowed God to do what He can only do in their lives.
Discover it and be blessed because of it. Mary was. Pretty sure Martha was. Today I am learning to be.
Thanks for your prayers. They are helping and so appreciated. I am thinking about going to Hockinson campus to see the kids perform today. If you can, see you there, today. 11:00 AM.
John